my new full time job...

Going to the fertility clinic for ultrasounds and blood work has become my new full time job! I go every other day - or more recently DAILY! My husband has been able to go with me a few times and each time he's with me my numbers are better -- coincidence? Things are finally moving toward the IUI, thankfully. This TTC process has been more emotional than I had realized it would be. I knew it would have it's ups and downs, I just didn't realize that it would have so many ups and downs in the same day -- in the same hour! Good news/bad news/happy/sad/scared/relieved. Ahhh... it's hard work! The good news is I have a 17 mm follicle in my R ovary! A few more mm and it's "go time"!

my follicle scan on Tuesday did not show any activity. :( We will have a scan again tomorrow morning (after 2 more injections). I want to be positive and upbeat about this --- but instead I find myself feeling disappointed. Should it really be this hard to make a baby? I'm a smart, educated woman... I know that even trying naturally to conceive does not always work on the first try -- I get that. But even so, a little part of me was thinking "this could work! this will work! oh my gosh! we're going to be parents!!!" blah. guess I have to wait to see what tomorrow brings.

Treatments...

So, 5 days worth of Clomid done -- I've had a few teary moments this week (included getting teary over seeing a ground hog. A GROUND HOG - really?). I've also had a really short fuse this week. Everything put me on edge! I did not, however, have any of the major hot flashes that I've heard about. Makes me worried that the dose was not enough. Tonight my husband has to give me my first injection of Bravella. I don't know who is more nervous about the injection - me or him! I give injections daily at work, but my darling husband?!? yeah.... not so much. I know it will be fine. I'm just so hopeful that this will work. I know the likelihood of this working the first time isn't all that great. But I am praying so hard that this works.

waiting....

I finished a round of Provera on Monday (4/9), so now I'm waiting for my period to start.
The disgusting part? Checking the Cottonelle has become my part-time job! I will start Clomid on day 3.

I'm having a hard time wrapping my brain around the idea that we are actually doing something - we are actually working towards this, not just wishing and hoping anymore --- we're making progress. We've never done medication to conceive - I can't help feeling a bubbling giddiness. I know that it might now work. I know that I can't put all my home into this first cycle. I am an educated woman - I understand that things take time (and, um, money). But I still feel like this is it - this is OUR turn/our chance.

Now, I'll just wait (and check the TP), and enjoy a weekend with my favorite man!

This is how babies are made!

My meds are here --- I have to admit, the big box they arrived in was a little intimidating! But here we go..... Let's Make A BABY!!!!!!

had a great appointment with my fertility clinic... the ball is rolling again.

I needed to see this today.... Thanks for the nudge, God. :)